I'm tired. Physically drained and exhausted. Yes, there are times when I feel a little sleepy and I say I'm tired, but this way transcends that. As of this moment, I feel like I'm about to just literally collapse and shut down.
Worked till 11-ish yesterday and by the time I got home it was almost 12am. Then did a load of laundry (otherwise I'd run out of uniform tees to wear today) and had my dinner-a.k.a.-pre-bed meal before I hit the sack. Eating was non-negotiable because I was starving, due to the fact that I was practically living off caffeine during the day because the only decent meals I had was brekkie (eggs and 100% sprouted wholegrain bread) and lunch (chicken breast and sweet tater). Which may seem like a huge amount of food to the average person but to me is toeing the line on starvation. I was feeling insanely weak all over that while closing the club, lifting 15kg plates felt like death. Which is pretty bad considering that when I train, I routinely deadlift more than 1x my bodyweight nowadays.
Slept at around 2am-ish last night, and got up before 5am because I was on morning shift today. Weetbix and whole milk for brekkie. First cup of caffeine, shot out of the door to get to work by 6.45am to open the gym. Literally swallowed wholewheat bread for lunch as I rushed to buy a week's worth of groceries in 45 minutes (I usually take hours to grocery-shop, so THIS, is a hurry for me). Second cup of caffeine after lunch break.
Managed to get off work just before 3pm. I was zombiefied and semi-dead but I'd planned to do my high-intensity treadmill intervals and there was no way I'd back out. Grabbed my iPhone, plugged in those headphones at max volume, and repeated to myself… "Don't just do what you want to do. Do what you have to do, to get to where you want to be."
The plan was to do 30 minutes of intervals, most of which was running at approx. 10.0km/h. Actuals: 5 minutes warm-up. 30 minutes running @ 10km/h. 15 minutes walking uphill at approx. 5km/h, 12% incline. Rest of the time was pretty much recovery. Altogether 60 minutes on the treadmill.
Exhausting but fulfilling. Well worth whatever it took to get it done.
Took a long nap when I got home. And tomorrow's just another day.
