Pauline's Meanderings
"Say what you want and be who you are because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Dr Seuss
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Because sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do...
Saturday, March 27, 2010
When The WHAT IF's Bog Me Down...
Friday, March 26, 2010
Adductor injury. Boo.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Chronicles of Kay-el: Day 1 of work and everything else...
I just got home from my first day of work! What a day! I love the place. And the people there. Everything there. It was awesome =)
I'm not too fond of the streets of Kay-el as of this moment. I scraped through and survived getting to work and back home. It took me an hour this morning to get to work. And more than hour to get back home. It frazzles me so bad each time I take one wrong turn and wind up in some super-long road that leads to oblivion. Sometimes it's the verge of tears. This place is crazy.
But I love the job and this gym and that I'm pursuing my passion to become a PT someday. That, is what's keeping me sane amidst the craziness of this city.
And so I shall persevere.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Helloooo Kuala Lumpur! (And a plethora of thoughts...)
Somehow I'm a bundle of nerves… =(
I guess I just need to give myself time to get over feeling intimidated by living in KL. It's so different from Penang. Zu and Wilchard showed me the directions to get to work and the training centre and all I can say is, KL is huge. The roads are relatively bigger and there are so many highways (and byways). And like I always say, "Everything in KL is bigger" because it's like, if you were to compare the size of one McD's outlet in KL, it's probably literally triple the size of a McD's outlet in Penang. Stuff like that.
(No, I still hardly eat at McD's. It just happened to be the first thing I thought of since it seems to be everywhere.)
I guess that weird feeling I have right now is not so much about leaving Penang itself, nor is it about doubting my ability to cope with living in KL. It's just this indescribable feeling of a situation that right now feels larger than I am. Momentarily overwhelmed, possibly. I guess I just need a little time for everything to sink in, and to get myself used to all the not-familiar-yet stuff. Kinda like an emotional-jet-lag if there's such a thing, hmm.
The fact is that I do have my fears and things-that-frazzle-me. I won't deny that. But I know that emotions are temporary. And that doubts and fears are all part and parcel of life. It's like one of those moments in BodyPump class when you're in the middle of a squat track and you wonder how your quads are gonna make it through. And then the instructor says, "The pain's temporary, but the results are forever" and suddenly it puts everything into perspective.
And that's how it is. Emotions, doubt and fears are real. But just like pain, they're just a feeling, and feelings are temporary. The time will come when they'll pass. And what really matters are the dreams and aspirations for which we brave those fears. Because what we want is bigger than anything else. And the things that matter will outlast the thises and the thatses.
What amuses me, is that today's my birthday and yet it seems to be the last thing on my mind because it's taken a backseat to everything else :P